An Essay on the Bhagavad Gita

An Offering of Devotional Worship

Victoria Hornberger

            The Bhagavad Gita, “Song of the Lord,” is part of the world’s longest epic poem, the Mahabharata.  The Mahabharata (circa 500 BCE-200 CE), follows the Veda Samhitas (circa 2000-1200 BCE) by many centuries.  Yoga literally means ‘union’ and the message of the Gita is that the fastest route to liberation (union with Ultimate Self/Brahman/God) is through yoga.  Manifested beings are ensnared in the cycles of existence; discerning the acting self from the witnessing self, liberates.  In Vedic religion, sacrificial rituals were expensive, not something the average person could afford to frequently perform.  The Gita reinterprets this, providing everyone access, and insisting that devotion is the easiest path to realization.

The Gita takes place on a battlefield, which can be read as literal as well as metaphorical.  Arjuna is the warrior hero who picks Krishna to drive his chariot during the family battle that is about to begin.  The nature of dharma is a major theme throughout this text and Arjuna is seeking to see his clearly.  In the beginning, Arjuna considers renouncing the world as he fears the possible consequences of the war and examines the likely damage to his family and lineage, “In destroying the family, the eternal dharma of the family is lost” (1:40).  He is lost and knows not what to do- “my thoughts on dharma are completely bewildered” (2:7).

Arjuna then asks Krishna to teach him about dharma.  Since it is his dharma to be a warrior and to fight a just war, Krishna tells him to fight.  “Not following one’s own dharma leads to misfortune” (2:33).  Amidst chaos, physical desires, and family dharma and drama, Krishna pulls the focus from worldly duty to universal duty.  What is to be battled is selfish desire, fear, hatred, sense attachment, and individualized ego-centered-consciousness.

The first line to be connected to the overall argument of the Bhagavad Gita is, “Those who know the three Vedas.”1 There are also three worlds; three gunas; three factors that constitute action and three that compel one to act; and the designations of Brahman are threefold- “OM, TAT, and SAT.”  Representation of the divine in three aspects appears in other accounts of divine revelation.  Religious doctrines seek to empower, to assist in re-connecting consciously with that which is greater than the individual.  If a person lives in a constant state of union with God, they have accomplished the purpose and teachings of scripture, in this case, the Vedas.  To know God or the Self is to know what the Vedas are attempting to convey.  “And by all the Vedas only I am to be known” (15:15).

According to the Gita, if the soma drinkers (Vedic Gods, priests and those who performed Vedic rituals) though purified of vice, do not realize their identity with the Self, they do not achieve the bliss of liberation.  Their purification earns rewards, but the divine gifts eventually run out and longings that can only be fulfilled in a physical body send one back to a womb.  However, those who are “Purified by austerity of knowledge…come to my loving state of being” (4:10).

Book two of the Gita begins communicating ways by which one can become knowledgeable.  Two disciplines that assist the seeker are the yoga of discernment and relinquishing the fruits of actions (2:51).  The yoga of discernment is “superior to action” (2:49) and without yoga, there is no discernment (2:66).  Krishna is the “Supreme Lord of Yoga;” when Arjuna asks to see Krishna in Universal Form, Krishna grants him divine eyes to behold this vision, “I [therefore] give divine eyes to you – behold my supremely powerful yoga!” (11:8); and Sanjaya (the narrator) sees too.  To be able to see with divine eyes or with “the eye of knowledge”2 is to discern.  Yoga activates and elevates an illuminating discernment that reveals the Ultimate Person.  Combining yoga with the relinquishment of the fruits produced from action, the self reels in the cords of attachment that cause rebirth.  Not by drinking soma or performing rituals but by being absorbed in yoga and relinquishment, “the wise are freed from the bondage of repeated births and go to a place beyond suffering” (2:51).

“Who worship me with sacrifices”- in Vedic religion, people sacrificed and prayed to the gods to receive rewards – children, cattle, wealth, victory in battle, longevity, and entry to heaven.  Sacrifice expands in meaning in the Bhagavad Gita, becoming more an offering of the heart.  It is not external sacrifices but intimate worship that draws self closer to Self.  Objects of sacrifice are not as important as the love with which they are given.

Giving scriptures authority, the Gita is clearly telling one to still perform the sacrificial actions of the Vedas; “If one knows the prescribed scriptural injunctions, they are obliged to enact them in this world” (16:24).  A liberated person performs Vedic rituals without the aim of obtaining earthly rewards.  “A true renouncer and yogi enact prescribed acts without attachment to the fruit” (6:1).  Acting for the welfare of others, and not because of selfish desire, is the path of the yogi.  Born of action, it is impossible to live in the world and to not act.  Performing Vedic rituals is a duty.  The liberated yogi, “makes the sacred fire and performs ritual acts” (6:1) to praise the gods, to give in return, and to act as a model for others.

Yoga is about making every action, of every day, a ritual, an offering of devotion to the Self.  “Other than action that has sacrifice as its purpose, action is bondage in this world” (3:9).  The action based on yoga is an oblation of self.  Only God alone, wanting only God and nothing else, liberates one from the bondage of selfish and physical desires.  Eternal beings cannot be satisfied by temporal things.  Following the dharma of the Vedas leads to rebirth; following the dharma of yoga – “Even a little of this dharma delivers one from great danger” (2:40), leads to liberation.  Uniting with Ultimate Self is the crowning and ending of dharma, and thus is yoga.

“Who, meditating on me, offer worship” (12:6); meditation is one more way to sacrifice, and is always freely available to all.  Engaging in meditation offers self to Self.  The Gita says, “By means of meditation, some perceive the Self within the self, by the self” (13:24).  This practice enables yoga; meditation increases the space for and focus on union, while yoga is the goal of meditation.  Through meditation, the process of expending energy outwards through the senses is reversed and instead of energy being spent, it is directed towards Self/God.  Verse 2:58 uses the analogy of a tortoise completely withdrawing its limbs, and states, “profound knowledge is firmly established” by redirecting the senses.  Meditation, yoga, and performing actions without attachment to their fruits, in accordance with one’s own dharma, cleanses and opens the channel of divine perception.

“From meditation comes the relinquishment of the fruits of action” (12:12).  Meditation is a tool used to discern, and with discernment comes non-attachment – the “absence of attachment and excessive affection” (13:9) to individual forms and sense objects.  The text is not advising one to disregard consequences and right vs. wrong action but is suggesting that due to the temporary and changing nature of the embodied and external worlds, security, peace, and fulfillment cannot be found by clinging to the results of action.  “Being completely freed from the notion of ‘I am acting’” (18:53), redirects one’s awareness from the actor to the observer.  One sits in meditation to learn to sit in the seat of the observer, the driver of the “mystical machine.”3

To act without attachment signifies wisdom in the Gita (3.24)Non-attachment can be viewed as a letting go of that which is dear, but this world is not always as it appears.  Maya is an illusive power that is difficult to cross beyond (7:14).  This power is an active principle of manifestation, compelling creatures to be dazzled by the cosmic play.  The bonds that form between objects of attachment and the senses, cause beings to ride upon the mystical machine, instead of driving this bodily vessel (18:61).  A person becomes steered by passions and confusion instead of wisely choosing their destinations.  Breaking through the attractive veil of Maya, requires discernment and austerity.  One who has transcended the desires of the senses, and is not attached to the results of actions, is one who has ascended in yoga (6.4).

The three gunas deliver additional reasons to live unattached in the world.  Every embodied individual contains all three of the gunas, or ‘qualities’ to a varying degree.  They arise from primordial nature, and the only way to be “free from birth, old age, and death is to transcend these three ‘qualities’” (2:45).  Sattva is the highest and most illuminating, however, it “binds one by attachment to knowledge and happiness” (14:6).  Rajas, “tightly binds one to action” (14:7), and fuels selfish desire (3:37), resulting in passionate pursuits that are intent on attaining the products of actions.  Tamas is associated with “negligence, bewilderment, and an absence of light” (14:13).  The realm of Brahman surpasses the ‘qualities’.  Any being in search of union with Ultimate Self, must overstep the misleading gunas of nature, and seek pure existence through the yoga of offering one’s love.

One may wonder, why go inwards?  A clue lies in book 18: “present within the inner region of the heart” is the Supreme Lord of all beings, states verse 18:61.  The very source of life beating energy in the physical body is the heart.  Love is associated with the heart, and the emotions of the heart are universal.  “They are in me and I am also in them” (9:29), claims Krishna, referring to beings who offer their devotion to the Self.  Reciprocating this idea two chapters later, Arjuna then says, “You complete everything – therefore, you are everything” (11:40).  This Ultimate Person/Self is related to the microcosm and the macrocosm, because not only is this Self inside, it also permeates and transcends the cosmos.  “Without the notion of ‘I am acting’- that one attains peace” (2:71).  It is the association with the individual ego that brings about fear, separation, and the need for attachment.  The path of yoga goes past the limits of you and I.  Living through the heart, one realizes one’s connection to everything.  “The embodied, eternally indestructible, dwells within the body of everyone” (2:30).

Reincarnation presents itself in the middle of the passage being analyzed.  Rebirth is not mentioned in the Vedas.4 However, rebirth is spoken of in the Upanishads (circa 1200-800 BC), and is prevalent in the Gita.  The idea that all beings continue to incarnate to satisfy longings reappears.  The senses are impossible to gratify, “Certainly, pleasures born of [sense] contact are only sources of suffering” (5:22).  Repetitively, the senses chase after external pleasures, and still, they crave more.

The mind is considered a sixth sense in the Gita (15:7); it must be calmed.  When the mind is busy planning for the future, or looking forward to the results of life experience, or dreading them, the mind is attached to the fruits of material existence.  As long as earthly desires are present, one must return to a body to satisfy those desires.  Verse 9:21 discusses the need to return to enjoy objects.  For the Gods give everyone all they crave.  It is the subject that fills, not the objects.  Until union with God/Brahman is all one yearns for, the need to go out and live through various forms remains.  It is not the tradition or the symbol but devotion that ceases the cycles of life and death.  By only following prescribed rituals rebirth will continue.  Eventually, the forgetfulness of birth and the illusory goodbyes of death push individuals to search for more, for the everlasting.  “Only the everpresent Self is without birth” (4:6).

The last part of the passage asks for an offering, “of a leaf, a flower, fruit, or water,” to be made, with love.  Continuing the cycle of giving, giving back to those who give, is a social norm.  The Gita reinterprets sacrifice in worship, making it inexpensive, so no longer are the poor prevented by lack of money or possessions from frequent sacrifice.  “Such an offering, presented with love,” is now applicable to everyone.  This offering, “I accept from one whose self is devoted” (end of 9:26).  Leaves, flowers, fruit, or water are all handy to attain, but devotion requires the whole self.  True devotion to the Ultimate Person is keeping thoughts not on ego but on Self and offering all actions to this Self. Through “renouncing all actions in me” (3:30) one sincerely offers oneself, and this is the most devoted of sacrifices.

“Not by the Vedas, sacrifice, or study,…Am I able to be seen in such a form,” says Krishna to Arjuna when showing him his universal form (11:48).  Arjuna sees Krishna’s universal form because he asks, because he genuinely and lovingly wants to know ultimate truth, not because he chanted the right words or performed external sacrifices.  Arjuna does sacrifice for Krishna by choosing him over his whole army, but this sacrifice turns out to be a gift to himself.  “With confusion destroyed, my memory is restored by your grace,” said Arjuna to Krishna (18:73).

Three main subjects have emerged from this essay:  the acts of meditation, and lovingly offering actions to Ultimate Self, which are the acts of sacrifice the Gita has moved towards; withdrawing energy and awareness back from the senses, and non-attachment to the fruits of actions, are austerities; offering love with all that one has to Ultimate Self, unendingly, is the giving.  These are the three dimensions of Vedic dharma, reinterpreted by the Gita.

Alluding to the “threefold designations of Brahman- “OM,” “TAT,” and “SAT;” sacrifice, austerities, and giving are enacted.  ““OM,” sounded by those who profess Brahman, sets into motion acts of sacrifice, giving, and austerity;” “Uttering “TAT” without aim of fruit -acts of sacrifice and austerity…and giving;” and “Steadfastness in sacrifice, in austerity, and in giving is also called “SAT”” (17:23-28).  These three aspects identify Brahman and are the way to Brahman.

“Sacrifice without faith,” performed only for the ancestors, or family in this world, is not as it seems; it is “asat” [not SAT]-not true)” (17:28).  Without devotion in the heart, the Vedic fire is not accepted by Original Creator.  One will continue the cycle of rewards from the deities until the heart seeks its Self.  Offering “actions of the life-breath into the fire of yoga” (4:27), shows a change in the type of fire, from literal to subtle.  The highest form of sacrificial fire that one can offer to Brahman is the internal, subtle fire; the fire that gives heat and life to the body.  In offering this fire back to Brahman/God, the supreme Vedic fire is ignited.

Near the end of the Gita, Krishna declares, “completely relinquishing all forms of dharma, come to me” (18:66).  Worldly dharma ends in Self/Brahman/Krishna.  Wholeheartedly offering self back to Brahman/Krishna is the way to achieve liberty from the cycles of life and death, the gunas, and the insatiable senses.  Uniting with Krishna, in his Supreme Form, is the universal dharma of all beings.  Krishna taught Arjuna the path of yoga, which destroyed his confusion, and restored his memory (18:73).  To attain the rapturous bliss of the everpresent Self, one must sacrifice.


            The verses in question are spoken, by Krishna, halfway through the book.  I focus on connecting these passages to the central argument of the Bhagavad Gita.  Influences stemming from the Gita created shifts in views of Vedic dharma; a few of these shifts will also be noted.

“Those who know the three Vedas,

the soma drinkers purified of vice

Who worship me with sacrifices….

Those persons

having enjoyed

that vast celestial world,

Their piety exhausted,

then [again] enter

the mortal world.

Thus following the dharma of

the three [Vedas],

Desiring certain

objects of desire,

they achieve a state of

going and coming back. …

One who, with love,

makes an offering to me

of a leaf, a flower,

fruit, or water-

Such an offering

presented with love,

I accept from one

whose self is devoted.”          (9:20,21,26)







  1. Verse (9:17) lists three of the four Vedas, the Rig, Sama, and Yajur. Then verses twenty and twenty-one of book nine again mention only three of the four Vedas.
  2. The Eye of Knowledge is found in verse (13:34) and (15:10).
  3. Verse (18:61) and ( ) compares the body to a mystical machine.
  4. I only know this because Professor Ruth Vanita said so.




Works Cited

Schweig, Graham M. Bhagavad Gita: The Beloved Lord’s Secret Love Song. New York:
HarperCollins, 2007.


Healing Mood Disorders Energetically

This is a section from a research paper I have been working on for a Biological Psychology class.  My goal is to help assist in improving the common methods used in Western medicine for treating individuals with various disorders.

        Vital energy is the core foundation of the human organism.  What keeps the heart beating, the mind thinking, reproductive organs reproducing, and billions of neurons communicating?  Energy powers the world and every living thing in it.  Energy is everything, without it, there would be no life, no movement, all cycles would cease.  Emotional and physical health is a projection of the energetic system.  Energetic can also be referred to as spiritual, as it goes beyond physical perception.  Mind, body, and spirit are all interrelated.  To heal mood disorders at their very root, it is necessary to heal energetically.  Dr. Katharina Johnson (n.d.) states the following, “From an energetic perspective, anxiety is a disorganization of the vital energy that runs in your body” (para. 5).  A synthesis of modern science and ancient wisdom exposes larger truths within the realms of matter and psyche.  This paper will now explore the connectedness of the nervous, circulatory, and endocrine systems with the chakras and how these systems affect the way we think, feel, and act.

       The brain and nervous system are the body’s electrical wiring.  Where does the supply of energy that powers this system come from?  It can’t be food, mass amounts of energy are required for digestion to take place and food can’t bring a being back to life.  Traditional Chinese medicine is based upon the knowledge that meridians, channels of energy, flow throughout the body; chakras are the centers of this energy.  Chakras are vortices that penetrate the body and the body’s aura, they are believed to play a vital role in physical, mental, and emotional health.    Kirlian photography captures the energetic light of the body also known as the electromagnetic field of the human body or aura.  The chakras are made visible to the physical eyes in these pictures.  Theories suggest that the aura might actually be a form of light that emanates at frequencies beyond the normal range of vision.  Like a rainbow, the chakras coincide with the visible light spectrum.  Clairvoyants believe health disturbances often manifest in the aura, and thus in the chakras, months and sometimes years before they manifest in the physical body.  A practitioner of Aiijii Healing, Karin Nemri (2004) writes, “chakras are the energy vortexes that give life to your energetic body, which is another name for your spiritual body, the part of you that has eternal life” (p.37).  Interestingly, science is still searching to understand the lifespan of light.  Photons live for at least billions of years.  The following is a description of the chakras from Laura Berman, Ph.D. (2016).   

“They are aspects of consciousness, and they interact with the physical and energetic body through two major vehicles, the endocrine system, and the nervous system.  Each of the seven chakras is associated with one of the nine endocrine glands, and also with a particular group of nerves, called a plexus, making them important elements in healing” (para. 8).

       There are seven main energy centers that run along the spinal cord.  The Central Nervous System, the first to form, and which we cannot live without, is the main interstate running through the chakras.  With regards to diagrams, it is a roadmap to the locations of these spiritual centers.  Afferent and efferent nerves serve as highways of communication between the CNS and the rest of the bodily system.  Western science has now noticed the many hollow tubes surrounding the axon of a neuron.  These microtubules have been thought of as a “scaffolding to support the nerve fiber, now a second look is being taken by some at their possibility of being the architecture of our consciousness.  Their size appears to be perfectly designed to transmit photos in the UV range” (Eden, 2016, para. 59).  

       The endocrine glands of the human body correspond with the chakras (please refer to Appendix A, B, C, and D).  The first, the root, relates to basic needs and to a person’s relationship with the physical world and their physical identity.  Reproductive organs, sexual energy, and the kidneys are connected to the sacral (there are slight interchanges among these depending upon the source used due to the intimate connection within all of these systems).  At the navel is the solar plexus.  The adrenal glands, pancreas, digestive and metabolic systems are interlinked with the solar plexus.  Within the heart center is the thymus gland.  Respiratory and cardiovascular systems are dependent upon the heart chakra.  The state of the nervous system is influenced by the heart and all of these systems of communication, energetic and physical.  The thyroid gland and the throat chakra reside in the same location.  Once we arrive at the top of the CNS, we reach the brow and crown chakras and they embody the pineal gland, pituitary gland, hypothalamus, biological cycles, and eyes.  This is only a brief representation attempting to touch the surface of the chakras’ roles in governing systems of the physical body.  When the heart feels pain, when the stomach experiences “butterflies” and nervousness, or the throat feels constricted and unable to speak, this is a result of the energy of the chakras.  Love flowing through the heart, sexual energy, all sexual experience, “gut instincts”, the ability to communicate, thought processes, and feeling connected to another are also all because of the chakras.  Additionally, the pathways of circulation suggest the influence of these centers as well.  Endocrine glands secrete hormones into the bloodstream.  The bloodstream then circulates these hormones throughout.  These chemical signals affect mood, growth and development, metabolism, reproduction, and the body’s responses to stimuli.  Medications that block and alter moods, emotions, and physical sensations do not offer healing; they only veil the discomfort from the waking awareness.  Emotions are energy, Nemri (2004) also states, “All physical disease manifests from long-term, unresolved emotional issues, the energy of which gets stuck in one or more of these energy vortexes” (p. 38).  Health and happiness depend upon the energetic system.  It is time for the west to more widely recognize the chakra system.  The health of our civilization depends upon it.

       The American Psychological Association’s website ( offers an article about medication and mental health called, Inappropriate prescribing, written by Brendan L. Smith (2012).  Smith brings to light, “The use of psychotropic drugs by adult Americans increased 22%  from 2001 to 2010, with one in five adults now taking at least one psychotropic medication, according to the industry data” (p.36).  Are pharmaceuticals an answer to improving mental health, or health at all?  Dr. Some, a West African Shaman, first came to the United States for graduate study in 1980.  He was surprised and shocked by his first visit to a mental hospital here in the states.  The culture he originates from works with mental illness in a very different way.  The Dagara people believe that mental illness is often the birth of a healer.  “In the West, it is the overload of the culture they’re in that is just wrecking them,” stated Dr. Some (Gaddis, 2010, para. 12).  “The frenetic pace, the bombardment of the senses, and the violent energy that characterize western culture can overwhelm sensitive people,” continued Dr. Some.  Through the eyes of the shaman, mental illness is a result of blocked energies and their approach is to align these energies.  Thus, freeing the blockages causing the illness.  

       To test if his villages’ beliefs were universal, Dr. Some brought an eighteen-year-old American named Alex back to his village in Africa.  Alex had experienced a psychotic break at the age of fourteen and suffered from severe depression, hallucinations, and suicidal thoughts.  He was living in a mental hospital and his parents had tried everything they could, they no longer knew what to do.  Dr. Some reported that after “eight months there Alex had become quite normal” (para. 20).  Alex spent four years living in the village and assisting healers before he went on to attend graduate school in psychology at Harvard (para. 23).  The shamanic approach worked for Alex when Western medicine and hospitals provided no hope.  Ancient cultures counted on spiritual healers to keep their tribes mentally and physically healthy.  Science and Spirituality have infinite wisdom to offer one another.  Humanity encompasses much more than we are led to believe.  

       Many methods of healing have been discovered throughout human history.  Research is now more readily available to all.  A variety of fields continue to bring more knowledge to the forefront.  It is important to address the many layers that compose the human being.  Like a puzzle, the more pieces we put together, the better we can see the whole picture.  

Here is the appendix that is attached to the paper.

Love to all, from Victoria

Symbology of 7


Thick in mystery

Enriched with many clues

Symbolically speaking to the seeker

One who wants to see things through


What is 7 telling us

It appears so many times

Throughout sacred scriptures

Even in our limited physical sight


7 Creation days in the Bible

7 Wise Sages in the Gita

7 Original Tribes in the Book of Mormon

7 Caves in legends of Mexican descent


7 Seals to be freed in Revelations

7 Universal human emotions

7 Natural notes on the musical scale


7 Churches of Revelations

7 Rays of Light

7 Colors of the rainbow

7 Chakras powering the human body


White Light creates all color

All we see is Light

Only by Light do we see

Light is Energy


Time to release the seals

To explore the real 7 churches spoken of by Christ

The promised rainbow exists within

The rainbow bridge that transcends



Victoria Hornberger 2017



Opening Up

I was lying in the tub meditating yesterday and I realized that I have a tendency to write from a theoretical viewpoint, rarely getting very personal.  Self-doubt has often plagued my being and anxiety too, leaving me afraid of making deep, loving connections with others.  During my years of youth, I was often told that my feelings and emotions were wrong, that I needed to get my head out of the clouds, and to not question what I was told.  My Soul could not accept many of the indoctrinated, judgmental, narrow, and rigid belief systems that were often imposed.  I moved out of my parents’ house during the beginning of my senior year of high school.  Luckily, I had already acquired most of my required credits to graduate and only went to school for half of the day.  This allowed me to work enough to pay for my own apartment and to keep a quarter tank of gas in my 89’ Camaro, some of the time.  There were times I lived out of this car and also put myself in some not-so-good situations.  As a small child, I often spoke of moving and traveling, I wanted to move to California.  I grew up in Indiana; one of the best things about my childhood was that my grandparents lived across the street.  This allowed me to enjoy them (grandparents), horses, swimming, and running barefoot on soft, green grass with my little sister.  Once I was out on my own I knew I had to get out of Indiana, I wanted to run, to run from the pain, to run from me.  The inner craving to travel only grew stronger.

Arrangements to go to Montana fell into place, the running began.  I spent the next five summers working for high-end “dude” ranches and in the winter I would often give a different state a try, only to feel Montana pull at my heart.  I didn’t know how to be honest with myself during this time, I wanted to pretend, to pretend that all was great.  I ignored the fact of how uncomfortable I was with myself, and my past, by drowning it all in alcohol.  I drank so I could feel comfortable being around others, I drank to even be able to date.  I just wanted to love and be loved and to feel close to others, but often believed I lacked this ability on my own.

My paternal Grandpa moved on from this life in 2010.  I tried to make arrangements to go home for his funeral, however I did not have enough money and thankfully my parents decided not to loan me the money for a one-way ticket; I would have ended up needing to stay in IN for a while, at least long enough to earn enough cash to go somewhere else.  Fortunately, I was “stuck” in Montana……and because of this I met my husband shortly after.  It has been a long process of learning to surrender to life, to trust the natural plan that unfolds ever so perfectly.  Crossing paths with the man who is now my husband has been one of the biggest blessings of this life.  I also realized yesterday that the healing process really began for me once we started spending time together.  He is a fire symbol, and I water, we balance things in such a way that I am often still surprised by it.  Upon our meeting, we immediately surrounded ourselves with all of the elements.  You would often find us camping in the woods, next to a lake, with a big fire blazing, hound dogs running around and a bottle of whiskey too.  We bought a little travel trailer and camped in many places often waking up to a million dollar view for free.

Eventually, we settled down on a little horse farm in Georgia.  Pondering the meaning of life really set in while riding on the backs of my four-legged friends through jungle-like trails in the Deep South.  I began taking breaks from drinking.  I started reading more along with examining just what it was that I was searching for.  My partner in this life asked me to marry him on the night of my 26th birthday; 5 months later we were expecting our first.  I knew I would not want to work full-time after giving birth and that my job on the farm was no longer going to work for me, or the owners.  We struggled with what to do and ended up buying a 5th wheel!  We were able to spend time with both families, who live in different states, travel, and have a consistent home to bring our baby home to.  There were definitely some concerns when it came to living in a camper with a newborn, especially when traveling at night on the interstate and almost running out of fuel from lack of planning!  Boy, did we become more structured!  We ended up spending our first winter with our five- month- old son in Topock, AZ.  It was wonderful; we hiked, visited a town with wild donkeys running around, spent time at beautiful national parks, and enjoyed the view and closeness of the Needles mountain range.  I will never forget the day I sat on the back of our truck’s tailgate reading Revelations while looking at the jagged, rough range of the Needles Mountains.  I knew that I was not going to find all of the answers I was searching for in the Bible.  I couldn’t accept it as the whole truth.  This started gnawing at me.  I found myself standing in front of the Eastern Religion section at Hastings one day, the book Autobiography of a Yogi was staring at me.  I bought it and had no clue why.  I can remember going home and reading through it randomly, I felt an excitement I had never felt before.  I thought, “This is something I can believe in.”  But, I had no idea how to practice any of it in reality at that place in time.  It seemed impossible, too good to be true.  That is until our daughter was born.

Our children woke me up, they helped to ignite something within.  One day when I was 7 or 8 months pregnant with our daughter, I was dancing with our son, he was basically sitting on top of my huge belly while we swayed to Van Morrison.  I knew, I knew deep within that there is so much more than what we are often led to believe.  I felt the Love of God, the eternity that we all experience, I knew there was too much love present to ever be separated.  Separation started to become an illusion.  After our daughter was born, I felt so much pain, pain that hurt in a way I couldn’t understand.  Anxiety started to take over.  I withdrew from friends, became a hermit, devoted myself to our kids, to my husband, meditation, and reading.  I read every book of Yogananda’s that I could get my hands on.  I started studying the Bhagavad Gita. Meditation hooked me quickly; I couldn’t believe that I could see purple Light swirling in my mind almost like clouds (reason for the name of this blog).  And all of this honestly left me feeling more confused.  There were relationships in my life that I could no longer participate in, they were based on somebody else’s truths.  I had to honor the wounded child within.  I had to accept all of these rejected parts of self that I had thrown to the side (something I am still working on).  I had no idea where to turn, or who to ask for help.  I hoped God would send me a Guru, I trusted that if it was meant to be it would happen.  I was guided to a beautiful woman who has put her life’s work into Neurofeedback.  Upon the very first session, my whole life was rocked, rocked in a way I was not ready for, or not ready to believe yet.  I felt so light leaving her office, I could not stop smiling or believe I felt such peace inside of myself.  When I meditated that night I immediately saw a blue Light.  A Light that has continued to grow at a steady pace.  If it wasn’t for the consistency of the changes experienced over the last couple of years I would have continued to think I was crazy.  I can remember laying on our bed, looking at my husband while holding my hand over my heart and asking him what on earth was wrong with me.  My heart felt ripped open, so amazingly delightful but intense.  I had no idea what to do with myself, I paced the floor, drank ridiculous amounts of calming tea, and immersed myself in my studies and meditation whenever my little ones were resting.  Thank goodness my partner believes in me, protects me, and loves me for me.  I am amazed by how much children can teach us, and in awe of the endless capabilities that blossom when we are open to Unconditional Love.  I share this because I want others to know how truly incredible Neurofeedback is.  I am currently working on my B.A. in Psychology and it will be an honor to help others in facilitating their spiritual growth.  I don’t know where my path will take me, but as of right now, I can’t think of using a better tool than Neurofeedback when it comes to offering therapeutic services that train the brain or assist us in finding our own Divine Spark.  Well, until next time………

Love and Light to All!  Embrace and enjoy your Journey and trust yourself!

So much Love to All.


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Beyond the Names of God

I just finished a course on World Religions, this is my written reflection for the last section.

As I reflect back on the material we studied during this course, I ask myself what stands out the most.  What do I write about for this last paper?  Immediately, the words of Sam Harris come to mind; I feel a relief that lightens the burden that can weigh on my mind, and it delights my emotions, again, to see Harris write the following, “Our situation is this:  most of the people in this world believe that the Creator of the universe has written a book.”  All scripture has been written by mankind.  God has the power and is the power that allows us all to read, write, learn, grow, and to accumulate wisdom.  All wisdom is inspired and guided by God.  Can we not find history and guidance, good guidance, in all scripture?  We are all connected to our Mother/Father, sharing the wisdom that we experience, and we are all experiencing God.  Each religion is only defending its own history, its own knowledge.  Knowledge that is a part of a whole.  We are all instruments of God, capable of feeling, playing, and sharing His/Her Melody of Life.  Now, let’s compare and contrast what the Word of God means within the Christian and Hindu traditions.

I am going to start with one of my favorite Bible verses, one that I am sure I have used before; “In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.”(John 1:1)  The Bible is telling us that sound originated in the beginning, the sound of God, a sound that is God.  The original sound vibration, Om (AUM) is the sound of the origination and dissolution of the universe in the Upanishads.  “Om is Brahman, the Primeval Being.  This is the Veda which the knowers of Brahman Know; through it one knows what is to be known.”(Brihadaranyaka Upanishad 5.1.1.)  “This breath (prana) is also Om.”(Brihadaranyaka Upanishad 1.3.23.)  Not only is Om considered to be the creator of matter, but the very breath inside of us, the sound that gives life to our cells, and it is through our connection to Om that we may experience the Highest Knowledge.  The Bhagavad Gita shares what is often still kept secret in chapter 8, line 13; Sri Krishna-“Whoever controls his mind and knowing that the soul resides in the forehead repeats the word, Om, knowing it as representing Brahma, and thinking of Me his soul leaves the body, that person shall attain the Supreme goal.”  Trillions of cells are constantly buzzing and communicating in each and everybody.  We are on a sphere that is spinning and moving at a rate of 1,040 miles/hour.  Researchers at Lawrence Livermore National Laboratory in California converted sound into light in 2009.  The field of Cymatics is currently studying how sound and vibration are made visible.  We also know that our most basic genetic material makes beautiful music.  Moses has brought this to our attention if we are capable of questioning what society wants us to see.  “Through faith, we understand that the worlds were framed by the Word of God so that things which are seen were not made of things which do appear.”(Hebrews 11:3)  Some branches of Christianity may claim that the Word of God is only found in the Bible, but with closer inspection, it becomes quite questionable.  If we strip the words of scriptures to their bare bones, we find more similarities than differences.

This world is made up of negative and positive poles.  Each cell in our body is electrically charged to have a negative or positive polarity.  We are only guessing how God views the ideas of good and bad until we have full-realization of God.  If everything is Original Goodness in a constant process of change, and all that happens is a necessary agent for growth, then what is viewed as bad, is good for us too.  Regardless of belief, or race and lineage, or what name we have given our Creator; God gives the gift of life to all of us, every day.  This gift is given through the children that spring forth from every culture across the globe, in the life we are living right now, and in the eternal life that we are, because it is our birthright.  All children are children of God, and all children share a similar makeup with their parents.  I pray that all humans go beyond the written words of man and feel the call of the human Spirit, the Eternal Spirit fueling this cosmic play.  God is the Creator of all the cosmos, the Mother, and Father to All.  We are children of the stars, we are always floating amongst the stars, day and night; and, if there are more life forms out there in the some 2 billion galaxies that we know of, then the One God, the God of All, created this life too, and we all share our Eternal Home.  When viewing Source as the Omega, we gain insight into an ultimate level where our connections can never be severed, that our temporary separation is only an illusion, and we see a God that is not indifferent or evil in any way, just One that knows all of His/Her children are always ultimately safe, connected and eternally snuggled within Creators Source Field of Love.  Only by honoring the Life Force in everyone do we step closer to the full experience of God.

I skimmed over the story of Adam and Eve a couple of times while I was writing down Bible verses tonight, and a couple of new connections urge me to continue writing.  The Axis Mundi is often pictured as a tree.  A serpent is symbolic of the Kundalini.  The Kundalini when awakened, rises up through the seven chakras.  Once it pierces the third eye, the symbol of Om, the seat of Christ Consciousness it opens us to a knowledge beyond the knowledge of duality.  The tree of knowledge to know all good and evil, to become like God begins to sound all too familiar.  The energy that awakens at the bottom of the spine moves up like a serpent, resembling the pattern of DNA.  When I looked up the meaning of Adam, I found that in Hebrew it means “to be red, of the Earth, man.” Our root chakra is red, it is the chakra that connects us to the lower realms, to earthly life, we have to overcome its animal desires.  In Russian and Hebrew, Yeva means life; Yeva is a variant of Eve.  This story of creation makes me question why it warns of knowledge beyond duality.  God certainly created us to be infinitely intelligent beings.  What is this secret behind good and evil?

Light, Sound, and Symbolism

We have spent so long dissecting, analyzing, and naming basic matter; matter that we know is all energy.  All words, names, and sounds stem from one source; sound waves.  Sound waves are produced by vibrations-little, tiny particles moving back and forth.  Particles moving back and forth cause a wave.  The faster the vibration, the higher the frequency.  The higher the frequency, the harder to hear.  The exchange of these sound waves, all vibrating at various frequencies give sound to the Universe.  The very source that allows our communication with one another is the exact same.  It does not care about our sexuality, ethnicity, status, or our chosen religion.  The Christian, and the Muslim, engaged in an argument about religious righteousness are exchanging the exact same energy, energy that they are, regardless.  As various religious practices, teachings, connotations, and dogmas play through the mind, I wonder and envision what all would look like if we were to wipe away all of the labels we have assigned.  Amusement moves my being at the simplicity, and yet the majesty as to where the common truths all point.  Are so many of the answers right there, but almost too simple for us to believe?  We have created a beautiful web of complexity out of commonly found messages of truth; persistent we stay to try and prove that the essence of the message we were able to conceive and preserve is the righteous way, regardless of how many it may not contain.  Turning to 1 John 1:5 in the King James version of the Holy bible we see the following:  “This then is the message which we have heard of him and declare unto you, that God is Light, and in him is no darkness at all.”  How can the Alpha and Omega not embody all that It is?  Matthew 5:13-16 tells us, “You are the light of the world.”

Humanities’ search for meaning and truth in this life, continues to bare more offerings.  I want to further discuss seeing reality and religion more clearly by engaging in the quote, “by His light all is lighted” found in The World’s Religions, by Huston Smith.  Reflection upon a few of Mircea Eliade’s insights into symbolism are also engaged in hopes to connect some of the common themes found within various religious works, myths, and numerology.  With each contemplative intake, symbolism has a way of deepening its meaning to the subject studying it.  In recent studies and personal experiences, light and symbolism have both been presenting themselves as keys to unlocking more “hidden” passages into a greater reality.

The term enlightenment refers to an illuminated mind, or one who sees more light.  Light is a wave of alternating electrical and magnetic fields.  And like sound, the higher the frequency of a wave of light, the harder it is to see.  The electromagnetic spectrum measures different lengths, and frequencies of light.  The average human eye only sees 0.0001% of the electromagnetic spectrum.  Interestingly, sound can increase the vibratory rate of the body (reason for mantras); increasing the vibratory rate of the body, allows more light to be seen.

We live in an age where we can watch the flash of light that occurs upon conception of human life on YouTube.  Countless near death experiences give testimony to the light at the end of the tunnel.  The human body literally glows, emitting a visible light that can now be detected through scientific machinery.  It is only through light rays entering the physical eye, and the transduction of this light by the nervous system and brain that we are able to see, to make anything out of this outer world.  Brandon West, contributor for Waking Times, describes the body as a holographic projection of consciousness.  The following quote from scripture supports this statement, “For anything that becomes visible is light,” Ephesians 5:14.  Color exists in light, bringing us to the rainbow.

Now, let us discuss God’s promise, the rainbow.  Eliade clues us in as to how the symbolism of the sacred “are always on their way to becoming more universal.”  In Greek mythology, we find the rainbow depicted as goddess Iris’s belt, or a footpath between heaven and Earth.  Buddhist mythology also links the Earth to the heavens through the rainbow; Samsara, the world of illusion to Nirvana, formless emptiness.  Tibetan Buddhism tells of the Rainbow Body.  David Steindl-Rast, a Benedictine monk, has been investigating the phenomenon of the Rainbow Body.  “The rainbow body is a complex phenomenon that will probably take years of study.  If we can establish as an anthropological fact, says Steindl-Rast, that what is described in the resurrection of Jesus has not only happened to others, but is happening today, it would put our view of human potential in a completely different light.”  This subject is extensive and there is a vast amount of fascinating information that is not commonly spoken about, or discussed, especially in the West.

The number 7 provides us with the sacred symbolism to dig deeper into the concept of the Rainbow Body.  There are 7 rays of light, thus creating the 7 colors of the rainbow.  The Bible speaks of 7 days, The Gita of 7 sages, and there are 7 energy centers in the body, chakras.  The 7 chakras correspond exactly to the 7 main nerve ganglia, which emanate from the spinal column, the very first part of the body that comes into form.  The color red is associated with the first chakra, the root chakra.  Orange with the second chakra, and ascending on up in complete accordance with the color wheel, and the rainbow the energy centers of the body continue.  There are many techniques available to assist one in consciously activating, and opening their chakras.  Opening the chakras is like climbing a ladder to the divine, the devotee works their way up each “spinning wheel”, or vortex of Light, striving to open each and every one, working up towards the crown at the top of the head.  The bible speaks of twelve gates to the city of heaven, the human brain has twelve cranial nerves, the twelve gates of the heavenly city.  In Dr. Pillai’s words, “Lightbody is a matter of evolution.”  Jesus told us we would be given new bodies.  Is it possible that authority figures have wanted to keep full truth from us?

The symbolism found in the number 3 is over-flowing with its own illumination.  The Trikaya doctrine of Mahayana Buddhism states that Buddha manifests in three different ways:  “created body, Nirmanakaya, manifests in time and space; Body of mutual enjoyment, Sambhogakaya, clear light manifestation; and the body of truth, Dharmakaya, which knows no limits, or boundaries, is bliss.”  Hinduism teaches three bodies; the subtle mental body, causal body, and physical body.  Yogananda described them as the causal body, astral body, and physical body.  The tree contains 3 parts; the roots, trunk, and branches.  Heaven, Earth, and the underworld; The Trinity; birth, life, death; self, Atman, Brahma; Aum is a 3 part symbol, and the number 3 is in its actual symbol.  Brahma as creator, Vishnu as preserver, and Shiva as destroyer represent another aspect of 3.

The body is an instrument, an instrument that plays God’s sound, energy, and vibration, the vibration of Life.  This came to me the other morning when my son asked me, “What is an instrument?”  I replied, “Anything that plays music.”  The instruments may come and go, but the music continues on without missing a beat.


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The Very Source of All


When we contemplate life we realize there is an ongoing quest within and without.  One that each individual can only fulfill and arrive to on their own.  Roger Schmidt breathes reflective insight into this quest in his works, Exploring Religion.  Schmidt defines religion as “a human seeking and responding to what is experienced as holy”; in class holy was described as transcending this reality, while being present as well.  Webster states that something holy has a divine quality, divine power; is spiritually whole, sound, entire, perfect, and acceptable to God.  Only a seeker can start a quest, and what is this seeker seeking?  Divine Qualities, Wholeness, and Perfection, to be filled so completely that there is not one need left?  “The Quest then is rooted in ultimate situations and a longing for liberation, or wholeness.  Essential to it is a restlessness, a perception by seekers that their lives are incomplete or missing something.”  Schmidt goes on to say “a religious quest begins with a “dis-ease” with the life one is living and a desire to live more fully and to conform one’s life to the ultimate,” leaving the reader to ponder the restlessness in their own life and what one must do to satisfy their seemingly infinite desires that tend to exist within the confines of this current realm we call reality.  Discomfort encourages us to seek comfort.

To some there is only one path to Eternal Bliss, and to others there are many.  If all exist within the One then both of these ring true.  In Exploring Religion we are shown a commonality between all religions, “the end of all religions –re-union with God.”  There are times throughout life that press an individual to wonder three things, “who am I? Why am I here? Where am I going” Schmidt refers to these as “ultimate concerns” and they are caused by “ultimate situations” ones that cause us to question existence.  A Jewish chant includes the words “Hear, O Israel, The Lord our God is one Lord.”  In order to internalize the words of Blaise Pascal the muscles of the mind must be stretched, “The universe, he wrote, “is an infinite space, the centre of which is everywhere, the circumference nowhere.”  What do we center our lives on so that we may too find the Infinite?  Ecclesiastes knows that God “has put eternity into man’s mind.”  Why does Infinite Intelligence live within living beings?  The question, “is this creative intelligence a Being whose love beckons us to center our lives in it?” arises in Schmidt.  There is reason to believe that a man is a whole world of his own, the microcosm, and that the universe is the macrocosm.  “Reflection about the sacred is inseparable from reflection about those who seek it” notes R.S. in his introduction.  How often are we only exploring our own reflection?  We explore infinite territory here on Earth, there is always something to be discovered, on the inside and out.  When our center is based on an object that is finite, it undergoes constant relocation as we undergo change and growth.  Only by placing our center of importance on what is infinite may we learn to align and flow with Life as One.

Along with recognizing the longing for liberation, we must start to discern the best methods for learning to walk our path.  The path of Knowledge, of Action, and of surrendering to God, through love and devotion, are among many facilitators that accelerate the evolution of individual consciousness back towards Perfection in Wholeness.  Throughout his work, Roger Schmidt looks deeply into the emotional, social, and intellectual needs of religion, along with its features and diversity.  Religions of the world are full of unverifiable and paradoxical claims.  These claims turn nations against one another, and yet leave each individual standing alone in deciding what resonates as truth inside of their own being.  “Everyone should carefully observe what way his heart draws him to, and then choose this way with all his strength,” Rabbi Baer writes, quoting his teacher.  One group may say that only through Christ can we find salvation, another may claim that meditation is the way to liberation, and yet another may point towards Buddha, but only by following our own heart may the war inside subside.

Why are we capable of questioning why we are here?  Why do we question our location in time and space?  Does the capability of recalling memories from the past, or the ability to imagine our future give reason to believe we are capable of transcending time and space anytime we want?  Dreaming is just one example of visiting different states of consciousness.  Home is often said to be where the heart is; our heart experiences so much yearning during Earthly life.  The things of this world may temporarily satisfy, but eventually more is craved.  A home is a place for rest, care, and rejuvenation; active engagement in life feels like work and eventually wears down the body.  Our origin must not be of the Earth for us to wonder why we are here.  Just as much as the body comes from the Earth, the Earth comes from the Forces of Creation.

Different religions, and different paths, can often just be a different way of explaining the very same thing.  For example, Christianity teaches the Trinity as Father, Son, and Holy Ghost; the Hindu’s teach Sat, Tat, Aum.  Sat, or the Father, is God as Creator beyond creation, or cosmic consciousness; the Absolute Unmanifested, existing beyond vibratory creation.  Tat (God the Son) is God’s omnipresent intelligence existing in creation, the Christ Consciousness within vibratory creation.  “For the Father judgeth no man, but hath committed all judgment unto the Son” John 5:22.  God at the highest level is beyond physical manifestation, beyond duality, unable to judge or see right/wrong.  All is perfection in this eternal state.  We must reach a high enough vibration to pass through the “pearly gates”.  We are not judged in the way we perceive judging as humans, frequency is attracted to similar frequencies, we go to what we are, and we are what we think.  The Holy Ghost (Aum) the blissful Comforter, the vibratory power of God that objectifies and becomes creation.  Meditators meditate on Aum, chanting Aum activates the Pineal Gland and helps to raise the devotee’s frequency, while also focusing and quieting the mind.  I have heard that Amen originates from Aum.  There is reason to believe that Aum is the Word that pours forth from the mouth of God sustaining all of Life.  All words are vibrations, Aum is the vibration of the Cosmos.  “In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God” John 1:1.

Life is our path.  Total surrender is not to an almighty God above and beyond us, it is not just to our Highest Self, but to Life itself.  When we can truly trust that all is in order, all is just as it should be, that sometimes things are going to happen that are just inconceivable to us at a particular moment in time, and when we begin to see how suffering and joy both bring us to exactly where we need to be, we align with Life.  Truth is unique to each individual in the same way that we are all a unique essence of The One.  Perhaps some of our nations need to re-evaluate the meaning of only one God before us.  Humans have always had a natural desire to be infinitely all-knowing, and contain eternity in the mind due to a connection that can become an open, or closed channel to an all-knowing, eternal, and infinite God/Source.  Not all of us see energetically, but God is not invisible.  God is the magician behind the sunset painting before our very eyes; the little tree that grows so subtly we can’t hardly tell it is growing, and then in what seems like just a moment we are shocked by how “suddenly” it becomes big; the very reason why not one of us is the exact same; the very source of each breath; and the energy involved in every heartbeat.  Only our very Source can fill, satisfy, and be everything that we are, and have ever searched for without dependence upon anything.  It is time to collectively step into higher Truths.


Exploring a Larger World

This is a fantastic video for anyone who is interested in expanding their awareness and reality.  I began practicing my meditations in a dark room, some of the time, a little over a year ago; I have been delighted with the vision and knowing that this practice stimulates and greatly increases.  I highly encourage giving this a try, just sit in a completely dark room with eyes open, or closed, and focus on your brow chakra.  Be conscious of your breathing.  I just read the book, METATRON THIS IS THE CLARION CALL, ALL YOU NEED TO KNOW…..Amazing!  I am going to be studying this book for a long time.  The exercises in it are surprisingly intense.  It is written and channeled by R Mackenzie.  I mention this book because I have tried different breathing exercises and have not found one that stuck, or really moved me until practicing what lies in this book by Mackenzie.

The video also recommends the aid of crystals, I have wrote a little bit about my personal experience with the mineral family in a previous post, Deepening Our Understanding of Self.  I have been profoundly surprised and grateful for their assistance in this journey.

Here is the link to the video, may it bring some excitement and joy to your day!

DMT: The Link Between Worlds

Quotes From The Prophet

Over a decade ago, I wrote down these wise words from Kahlil Gibran.  I have carried them with me ever since.  These are all from his book The Prophet.  I feel gratitude for pain each time I read them.  The craving to truly understand my heart, and Life’s Heart, grows dramatically when absorbing these meanings.


“Even as love crowns you so shall he crucify you.  Even as he is for your growth so is he for your pruning.”

All these things shall love do unto you that you may know the secrets of your heart, and in that knowledge become a fragment of Life’s heart.”

If in your fear you would seek only love’s peace and love’s pleasure, then it is better for you that you cover your nakedness and pass out of love’s threshing-floor.”

Think not you can direct the course of love, for love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course.”

What is fear of need but need itself?”

“The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain.”

When you are joyous look deep into your heart and you shall find it is only that which has given you sorrow that is giving you joy.”

“It is in exchanging the gifts of the earth that you shall find abundance and be satisfied.”

Your soul is oftentimes a battlefield upon which your reason and your judgement wage war against your passion and your appetite.”

The silence of aloneness reveals to their eyes their naked selves and they would escape.”

“Your daily life is your temple and religion.”

For life and death are one, even as the river and sea are one.”

“And what is it to cease breathing, but to free the breath from its restless tides, that it may rise and expand and seek God unencumbered.”

“And when the earth shall claim your limbs, then shall you truly dance.”

To judge you by your failures is to cast blame upon the seasons for their inconsistency.”


Kahlil Gibran